emeritus

​When I make a fist, It is the size of my heart It is blue and pink, Veins, a center and Opposable in antiquity. Deep breath, Candor, Silence. I’m lost Even though I know The spot I stand on. I’m told: You are Here, red dot Blinking. Absence is our most distinguished Professor, emeritus. I…

swim

We escape into Our stories in our own voices– A distraction from the gulf. I’ve been lost in nostalgia, Been drunk on it Have drowned in it– I have countless lives Through my memories and judgements And in none of these lives am I true to myself, or my nature– I am only myself that…

insomnia

I am paying attention to the way Time withdraws while Solitude widens; I feel your fingers in mine, I think I will not sleep, I will be here in the moment. Rays of moonlight stretch across the ceiling. My lips work across your shoulder. There is a fury as my tongue parts my lips; There is…

anxious

I have to focus, now I have to focus. Thoughts come through racing Screaming they mean anything more than My own fear. Break that down into Little bits.  And look at it. Look at it–white despondency Tied around my neck, A string of bayonets turned inward Around my stomach, Cancer growing concave in my skull….